funny- but not funny HA HA.

So I'm sitting here. Just wondering. I should be up and having fun- singing, dancing and drinking but I'm sitting in this chair, nursing my mojito and just thinking. Karma is a real bitch. So Karma, seriously? Just.. fuck you Karma. Fuck you. It's not funny, you can stop anytime now.

It's funny how things can change from great to fucking horrible in no time. How people can go from one end of the spectrum to the other in minutes flat. I'm responsible for everything going wrong and I'm not denying it at all. You can hate me, that's fine. Judge me all you want, hate me all you want. I'll pretend I don't care and that it doesn't bother me until I can't anymore. There's a hole in my life where you used to be. Nothing is replacing it because I still hope that someday this will all turn out to be a nightmare and everything will go back to normal. I know I'm just delusional though. Nothing is changing this. Nothing I can do, nothing I can say. If it were that simple, I would've done it already.

This ends the vague portion of the entry....only vague to some though.

Boston was nice, I love my best friend with all my heart and nothing will ever change that. She's always there for me, no matter how bad I fuck up...because I have fucked up a lot. Especially lately, but I don't expect pity or anything from anyone. I'm thankful for everyone who is still here, and sorry for the ones I've lost along the way. As for the fans who approached me yesterday, wow.. I'm so sorry. I honestly do not remember this morning at all so really, I'm sorry. As for the jerks at TMZ, no.. I'm not sorry for calling you intrusive pricks. I do remember that much.


Tonight was spent with an amazing individual. Miss Memphis of SNL. She knows how to show a girl a good time. HAHA, she's actually singing her heart out right now. Gotta love her and karaoke. She's amazing and she was a great distraction. Tomorrow.. well, later.. will be spent with one of my favorite people in the world. A one Miss Garbo Khiell. We will play doctor (lmao) and record our animal cracker massacre. Oh yes, we're hardcore. After that, Monday will be spent dancing along to her amazing skills at her show which everyone should go to! Seriously, go buy your tickets NOW.

Next week will be nothing short of amazing. I get to spend Thanksgiving (and a few days before that) with one of my favorite people in the world. CJ Walker, I'm looking at you babe. He's going to show me around Vegas and we're going to party like there's no tomorrow. Thanksgiving at his place should be interesting as well. Haha, cannot wait. Seriously. So that's what's going on in the life of Spencer. Tell me world, how are you? tell me you're better than I am.

this was typed out from my phone, i'm a pretty good drunk typist. don't lie.

come on young lovers, lets do this right

Hey guys, Spencer here.

What have I been up to? Well lets see. I have The Spirit coming out next month! Christmas day and you should all go see it. Not for me because I suck, but definitely go see it for Kelsey and fucking SAMUEL L. JACKSON. You all know he's the man. It was so much fun working with him. Also, Frank Miller is a nut. I will never forget Comic Con 08, sitting next to him on that panel? Fucking priceless. He is just a damn NUT but so much fun to work with. That set was definitely never boring. Especially when you have your best friend there willing to fight with you in mud. Now that was fun, if they would've filmed that I think we could've made ourselves a pretty penny. Kelsey, we should totally reenact that for the people. haha.

Oh, my music thing! Haha. Well, I feel like a total loser for actually going through with this but if I fail then I can't ever say I didn't try right? I love music though, and no I'm not abandoning acting for it. I could never abandon acting, I'm not that great really. I have set up so many meetings with music execs lately, they all want in on the SPENCER J. ALBUM. I'm flattered that people are even taking an interest in this, really. I'm surprised to say the least. I mean, I want this to take off and be successful but I can only hope for the best. Though I will say that with awesome people like my best friends working on it with me, they know who they are....it's a step in the right direction of being awesome! I picked the best of the best and they just happen to be my very amazing friends.

Jules wrote a song that will eventually be my first single, it's called Young Lovers and it's absolutely amazing. I can't wait to record it. I can't wait to get into the studio finally after all the legal mumbo jumbo is done with. It'll be amazing. I have never been in a studio recording anything so this is all very new and exciting for me.

plans for this month and following ones?
- get brand-new New Yorker acquainted with the beautiful city.
- go see the tree lighting.
- thanksgiving in LA, then back home afterward.
- christmas in australia with awesome best friends. ( are we still doing that guys?)
- january means busybusybusy spencer.

adios amigos, los quiero a todos! <3